Just because you're meant to be, that the guy is the 'one', doesn't mean that it's going to happen.
I think i have probably found the most perfect man, flaws and all. I knew it all along. the same man i've been with for nearly 3 years. I still smile when i see his face, and my heart beats at his slightest touch. When he has me in his arms, everything's okay. Sure, we've had our ups and downs and moments where we grew apart, but through all those times, he never left me as my best friend. He's still my best friend now, in fact.
There are times i wished could be erased. I wish his lips were the only ones i kissed, his hands the only ones i touched. But if being with other guys mean only to further reassure myself that he's the only one i want, so be it.
The things i feel when i'm around him is unimaginable.
2 and a half years later, i still have butterflies.
Then again, this is reality, nothing is too perfect. I'd be lying if i say we don't have our problems. I'd be lying if i say we're sure we'll be together for the next 10 years and get married. Hell, i'm only 18. But if i'm 18, how would i know if he's the love of my life? I just do.
Like i said, just because the person is there, doesn't mean it's going to work out. There are and will be so many things beyond my control that just wants to mess this up for me. Something called time.
Time is my biggest enemy here.
At this age, we're both supposed to live life, and living life can either make or break us a part. Being in a committed relationship can contradict to that. He holds back a part of himself for me and vice versa. And sometimes you wish you were older, that i'd have met him when i was a little bit older and am able to settle down, cause that's what i really wanna do with him. I'm struggling to juggle both my wants; to live life, and to settle down. Cause i can't choose both right now.
I wish the complications of life would stop getting in between us.
He's the one person that really truly believed in me, when no one did. He sees me in ways i can't see myself. Sometimes i'm puzzled by what he actually sees in me ~__~
I really can't explain this, what's going on. Things are hard. And sometimes, the timing just isn't right.
I think i have probably found the most perfect man, flaws and all. I knew it all along. the same man i've been with for nearly 3 years. I still smile when i see his face, and my heart beats at his slightest touch. When he has me in his arms, everything's okay. Sure, we've had our ups and downs and moments where we grew apart, but through all those times, he never left me as my best friend. He's still my best friend now, in fact.
There are times i wished could be erased. I wish his lips were the only ones i kissed, his hands the only ones i touched. But if being with other guys mean only to further reassure myself that he's the only one i want, so be it.
The things i feel when i'm around him is unimaginable.
2 and a half years later, i still have butterflies.
Then again, this is reality, nothing is too perfect. I'd be lying if i say we don't have our problems. I'd be lying if i say we're sure we'll be together for the next 10 years and get married. Hell, i'm only 18. But if i'm 18, how would i know if he's the love of my life? I just do.
Like i said, just because the person is there, doesn't mean it's going to work out. There are and will be so many things beyond my control that just wants to mess this up for me. Something called time.
Time is my biggest enemy here.
At this age, we're both supposed to live life, and living life can either make or break us a part. Being in a committed relationship can contradict to that. He holds back a part of himself for me and vice versa. And sometimes you wish you were older, that i'd have met him when i was a little bit older and am able to settle down, cause that's what i really wanna do with him. I'm struggling to juggle both my wants; to live life, and to settle down. Cause i can't choose both right now.
I wish the complications of life would stop getting in between us.
He's the one person that really truly believed in me, when no one did. He sees me in ways i can't see myself. Sometimes i'm puzzled by what he actually sees in me ~__~
I really can't explain this, what's going on. Things are hard. And sometimes, the timing just isn't right.
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