You'd think that three jobless, college-less months would be filled with endless dates together but in between his friends, and my friends, and parties, and events, we barely have time alone, just us.
Thursday was our first date in a very very long time. Sorry laa, i don't like to blog without pictures :(
Will update when i get my hands on em'. Aureaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
I passed. Eventhough was out the night before for the launch of Monday Night Boys Toys. (update soon) But it's not like i'm gonna be driving around. The road still scares me. My P license pic looks pretty good though.
I'm trying to chill out more. Lay low. But it doesn't seem like it's working.
Thursday was the launch of the clothing line Rebellz @ Goddezz Couture Club and look who's there ;)
Some of them couldn't make it so as usual it's the usual 5 again. The pictures of the clothes will be in another post by itself. Or check them out at Rebellz.
Photographer Dwayne Foong.
Talk about spanking.
Love the picture!
The fab us ;) Sorry babes, fashion and runway pictures in the other camera so i'll update those later kay? Be patient hunnys!
After party at Maison. Thanks to DJ Biggie.
He's called Biggie for a reason.
Don't ask, it was random.
Thank you Advertlets for the awesome show! More fashion pictures soon. For now, i'll lay low and off the party scene to spend some time with my loved ones without the headbanging music and alcohol. Pretty sleepy right now after last night's mamak/shisha session.
I have my driving test this coming Tuesday and two/three photo shoots lining up. Nervous? Hell yeah.
Rebellz Clothing Line Last night was the soft launch of Rebellz at Goddezz Couture Club. Definitely the event to attend, guestlist only. We hung out with Dwayne Foong, the photographer and Josh Lim of Adverlets. Awesome fashion show, seriously. The girls were hot and i think i'm in love with that green dress they showed. Drank a few rounds of what else but vodka.
When the fashion show ended, we were lepaking at the couches and decided to head somewhere else.
So we left to Maison after for our very own after party. Thanks to DJ Biggie :D And as usual, we started the dance floor. I was the first to go up on stage, dragging Eshia, then Nic. And i finally got high after how long and 8 glasses of vodka, tequila shots and 2 bottles of beer later, i was dancing even more. Hung out with DJ Biggie for quite a while doing stupid idiotic things. He's spinning at Mist tonight!
Anyway, i got back at 5a.m. after mamak and was literally dead the moment i hit the bed.
I need pictures baby! hungover
Amelia, your song was hot in both the clubs! Thank you Advertlets and DJ Biggie.
Photoshoot next Sunday. Something. Somewhere. And two more coming up gawd knows when. P exam next Tuesday. But for tonight, I'm gonna party.
Aurea baby! Can't wait for your semester break! ...
Rebellz, the brainchild of designers Jean & Ju Nn. The Aussie based clothing line will be holding it's launch tonight at Goddezz. Whoever's going, I'll see you guys there ;)
Other than the usual perverted guys that hit on me. Today, a really nice Russian dude bought me my Starbucks drink out of nowhere. I was lining up behind him when he started chatting with me. He said i'm lying when i said i'm local. So, thanks again for the drink ;)
Anyway guys, anyone has a bomber/ biker jacket i can borrow? It'd really help and i'd owe you a bunch.
Apparently Rihanna's boyfriend went Chris Brown on her ass. Yes, that's the new word. Because of some fallout in his lambo, that motherchucker.
I didn't get tickets for it, mind you. I just wanted to use that Chris Brown word. :p
I'm not the biggest fan of Rihanna but i dance to her songs alot. Like that choreography to S.O.S. with my friends and all her songs they play in clubs.
So, boo you Chris Brown! Ticket holders will be notified in two weeks of the new date. So hang in there babes!
The one day i'm home after gawd knows how long, if you don't consider mamak in the night. We stayed in to hang and watch GG and make cards, cause we're that lame ;)
Nicole drooling over Penn Badgley as usual.
Oh! Serena!
My masterpiece.
We went out to mamak after to lepak. Got home and the boyfriend was nice enough send over McD's. More food!
I know i've been blogging mostly about my thoughts. No worries, pictures will be up soon.
Before i end my words, there's just one last question. This question hit me through a link in Tyng's blog. And yea, i think just about everyone needs to read it and ask yourself:
"If you were to be stuck in an airport because your flight got cancelled at 4am in the morning, who would you call to come take you home ? Who would come without grumbling ?" Honestly, for me, not many. It's sad how real the world can be, ya know?
Last but not least,
Happy Valentine's Day, love.
I know i'll be celebrating mine in the most unconventional and completely out-of-the-norm way. Be it you're single, taken, busy or not, i hope everyone has a great valentine's. To my friends, love you always.
Eshia Kar Mun Yogendran Nicole Aldeth Main Amelia Justina Ng-Hao
The 3 most important girls in my life. You make me smile. Omg, i sound gay.
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I've been insecure lately honestly. About everything. My love, my life and my friends. I get these moments where i hate being alone. Just to reassure myself my life is alright and i'm still loved. Maybe it's from spending too much time with nothing to focus and work on. Or having nothing to keep my mind occupied.
I'm trying to put my life into a direction, a path that i want but somehow things just don't go right, like i want it to. My mind's messy with thoughts and paranoia. It's been a while since my mind's been like that. And i don't like it one bit.
All i need right now is for them to tell me things are perfectly alright.
Just another day out on town. Amelia, Eshia, William. Kok Fei left before i could see him and his new boyfriend.
Shopping. William got that waistcoat he's been pining on for ages. He has a smile on his face that he can't wipe off now. I just got a top and Eshia's broke. We had lunch at KFC and desserts at Godiva Chocolatier Cafe. A bottle of Evian costs RM10. Best chocolates though, i swear!
Spent the night at home cuddling while watching Baby Mama.
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See you guys at the launch of Rebellz! Let's party the night away, fashionably. ;)
That's how long i gotta wait till i turn 18. Honestly, right now, i just can't wait. The fact that my parents are using my age to keep me locked up in the house in completely stupid. At home, i feel like the black sheep. I'm different and it's like i'm punished for being different which completely doesn't make sense. Am i just suppose to be like another goody two shoe smart ass bitch like my sister? I'm not. I'm nothing like her and in some ways i'm kinda proud of it. I'm loud and i'm social. Very. I can't stay home, and it's not like i have anything to do at home but rot in front of the computer. I've been out everyday yes, but i've been home unreasonably early bloody hell! The last time i was out later than twelve was the Chap Goh Meh thing and Maison and Asia Cafe. Uuuuurrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm waiting for that one last breaking point then i'm walking out.
I have that insecure side of me. I mask it with confidence when i'm out. It's stripped down when i'm home.
I was anorexic. I weighed 34kg. I was bulimic when therapy started for my anorexia. I purge, i take laxatives. I self harm, i cut a few days ago. I was depressed, i was suicidal. I suffered from panic attacks. I have a slight case of Bipolar and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I am a clinical perfectionist. I was put on anti depressants. I was in a psych ward. I had a psychiatrist. I went through therapy.
Actually by the time you read this, your birthday's over. But heck, i'm posting it. I just got back from Asia Cafe. I'm glad i saw you today, my 20 year old man. Will love you always for our hang outs, for our pool games, and for our nights out on town. For the times you were there when i'm dealing with bullshit and for the times i just wanted to escape.
Lol. I know, of all people right? Her Feng Shui book cheers me up, eventhough there are some things that aren't right. I wanna get it :D
It says I'm the metal sheep and will be having high luck this year. That in certain months i would have tons of oppertunities to pursue my dreams. Owh, and that my relationship would end in months of March-May. Let's see if any of that happens.
So it was just us, Starbucks and a few rounds at Brewball. And my new pair of black Nine West oxfords. Pretty hyped up for the day.
It's funny how the night can be so much the opposite of that.
We wish we were those 3 single girls living together in the city. Partying all night long, every night. Having chinese take out and watching re-runs of Gossip Girl drooling over Penn Badgley, Ed Westwick and Chace Crawford.
No boyfriends, no drama, no worries, no stupid fights, and no pain. We're sick of it all.
I need something, anything to make me feel better right now. To get these thoughts out of my head.
The only people who know, one is here in my levi's and playing with my guitar, the other far away trying to get a job. Two most important people in my life right now.
I don't know why it bothers me, i just don't. Someone, anyone, tell me what to do.
I've been pushing it away, keeping the thought outta my head. It comes back to haunt me time and time again. And each time it returns, it gets harder to push it away.
I was just done crying, she was depressed, the other high.
I believe that passion and drive can take you places. That sometimes maybe hope is the only thing we all need to live by. I have been through parts of life, been called a bitch, a skank, a slut. I am of many things. I live a life one can only imagine.
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