Last night

Ladies Night @ Maison.

On the DJ guestlist (Thanks Biggie!)
Dancing on stage all night.
Got hit on by random guys and some singer.
..and girls.
Few rounds of free drinks from the guys.
Met Andrea and Nick.
And the rest.
Danced so mad my earrings broke ;)

Had fun.
Pictures as soon as i get my hands on em.


I'm sick now. As i usually am after a night at the club.

kisses.

I wanna shop!

Watch out people. I'm back into my shopping mood again.

And what exactly would make my day right now?

THIS

from ourmutualpassion

whoever's kind enough.

:D

kisses.

My everything

Baby, you've just been great, with everything that you do.

For me.

For us.

Today when you bump into your ex and told me that you're glad to have met me, well, i'm glad you did too.

I'm glad of everything that you are. Every part of you. And i'm glad that you're apart of my life.

You have no idea how grateful i am. You have no idea that i'm still falling head over heels for you.

Everytime i step into those arms, that's where i wanna stay forever.

You're my love, my all, my everything.

kisses.

2nd Dress Day

At C.Club.

Pictures click! click! click!

kisses.

The hols

Pretty booked up over the weekend.
Parties, hang outs.
Meeting up with my photographer tomorrow at C.Club as usual.

Filling up the Taylor's application form now.

I hope everyone is enjoying the hols. I know i am.

;)

kisses.

Us

Seriously, we can't have one bloody day together without having problems between us to fuck us up do we?

kisses.

Festive wishes.

We celebrated 2nd Dress Day yesterday night at my usual hotspot, C.Club for dinner and drinks. Bartenders there know me, so yea. Went to our usual Shisha spot later on.

Pictures with Oreo Cookie another day.

;)

And before i head off to the traditional Chinese New Year Eve's dinner.

Happy CNY loves!

I know alot of you babes are just looking forward to the cash that will flow in. While that is definitely a good thing, don't forget bout family too. Be nice to them.

After all, they will be the one giving the cash next CNY.

I wish everyone a very festive and prosperous Chinese New Year.
Let's celebrate the year of the Ox in style!

Your blogger.

kisses.

Virginity

According to a tag tagged by B.

I'm 39% virgin.

I have no comments.
;)

kisses.

Talk of money

I talk like I'm some materialistic spoiled brat.
But I'm not.

You've never met me and my thoughts, how deep they can be.
But just because i'm deep like that, doesn't mean that i have to be those weirdo emos who just mope around in the corner with their thoughts complaining bout life. That is just pathetic to me.
For me, i like to have fun. I act like i'm drunk when most times i'm not, I get naturally high some nights when i'm out (they should know ;) ).
And for awhile, i get away from those thoughts, and i see the other side of life, the side i'm really thankful for, and i enjoy it.

I don't need materials, as unbelievable as that sounds. I don't. I have the luxury of having a few occasionally, so why not? But if i can't, i'm alright with that too. It is not everything to me.

At this age, i know that. I've been to both sides and honestly, cash is important, yes. But it isn't till a point that it's all that can make you happy. It's the relationships in your life that do. The one with your family, friends and the love of your life. And the how the talk about cash being able to make or break a relationsip, that's bull. It doesn't cause a divide or an issue unless you make it to be.

So if you wanna continue to view me as a spoiled materialistic brat, go ahead. But if you're smart, you'd back off from me. Trust me.

;)

You know you love me.

kisses.

Behind it all

Sometimes i wonder...
if you actually know the things that run through my head,
and the things that i do.


When you hurt me.

kisses.

KL again

So it was suppose to be our lunch date after gawd knows how long of not seeing each other.
But at one point it kinda screwed up. All of our planned dates screw up.

So i ended up hanging out with Eshia and Kok Fei and I pretended to be Kok Fei's girlfriend, holding his hand and hugging and such :D

Being harassed at Materiel. The clothes are seriously nice and affordable too!

Haha.

William came back. Lunch at C.Club as usual. Met Amelia. Shopped.

I got myself a pair of skinny jeans from Marc Jacobs. I wanted that pair of oxfords from Nine West too but i guess Marc Jacobs would do for now.
Baby got a Guess belt. Awww, his first Guess. He's following in my footsteps. Not good.

Owh, and our shopblog is almost done so watch out!

kisses.

I got my...

Marc Jacobs dress.

;)

kisses.

Happily Never After

"You know what's worse than growing apart? Not knowing what came between us."
MichelleLSL, January 20th.

Maybe it's my fault, that i back away sometimes. Still afraid of getting hurt. I need your reassurance and probably right now is not the best time to ask for it. But i need it. I admit that. I'm not as strong as you think i am.

I back away for my own security.

In some ways, i have changed. I'm much more emotionally independant, as a result of backing away, i became more sure of myself and the decisions i make. In some ways, i've stopped depending on you.

From that, i care less, i feel less.

It's not a good thing when i'm in a serious relationship. It's not a good thing at all.
Slowly, i'm building a wall around me, and i sense that you're doing the same too.
The wall you once broke down, it's building up again.

I don't know what's going on, and that's the scary part. I can't fix it...

Baby, what's happening to us?

This heart we share, it's breaking apart. And you're not even here to say things will get better.

kisses.

Sunway Pyramid

Went job hunting for Nicole ;)
We acted like rich brats. Well, mainly me.

Before the pictures:
Click! Click! Click!

Tonight is the one more night i'm not sleeping again. Gosh, skin is getting bad, i need to sleep. But we're up (at least Nicole and I are) watching GG marathon.












I wish i was skinnier. Taller.

I send loves babes ;)

kisses.

Can't Wait

to blog about today ;)
Modeling is so much fun. Lol. With your friends at least.

Just can't put it in words.
Will update bout it soon.

kisses.

Quote

"Eyhh, stop moving fishes! I wanna count how many!"

That's how drunk Pacad was.
Attempting to stop fishes from moving.

...

B and I are starting a blogstore / shopblog/ whatever. We've been wanting to do it for weeks and finally we're setting it up.
Also, I'm helping William's mum to get their family business going online.

So, watch out for updates!

kisses.

Pool Day

I taught Amelia pool :D

Now we can main same same.
Good time. Brewball. Pancakes.
Got mocked for not being able to speak cantonese well.
Now i know what Feng Tau means =.=





Guess what i found on the way back!
F Cup Cookie!
You don't wanna know what it is.
Eshia, you know you want it ;)


...
Night plans changed alot. I got pissed so i headed out for dinner, then Asia Cafe and then a night of boozing.









Pacad got so drunk you have no idea.
It was also Don't talk about your problems day cause it was a screwed up night for Pacad and I.
I'm always grateful for these guys.
And Nicole!

We got back about 4 a.m.
Pacad was all the way drunk mannn.

kisses.

I have something very very very important to say

LIONELLLLLLLLLLLLL BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

:D

This is what you get for pakat-ing with Oreo Cookie.
She's on my side now and there's nothing you can do!
Lol. I'm so lame.

kisses.

Just to note

Sometimes i don't reply some text messages and I'm really sorry. It's either i'm busy or am going through shit then.

So yea :)
But most times i'll reply later on.

Can't wait to see Amelia

;)

Your blogger.

kisses.

Tell me, what the hell do you want.

I'm sick and tired from caring and not caring. The times i couldn't be bothered with what you do with your life, you complain of how i stopped caring and stop making you a priority.

You told me to care.

And when now i do, you're not listening to what i have to say.
So what are you trying to do? Fuck around with me? Get my attention?

What the fuck do you want?

kisses.

Life's little changes

Months ago, back in October and months before that. Our lives were pretty much planned out for us. I mean, all we worried about was SPM and how not to screw it up. The big decisions that we have to make haven't arrived yet.. Some of us were still pretty eager to grow up.

And right now, months after that life changing exam, here we are, unsure of ourselves. And all of a sudden, we're making decisions for us and the life we have ahead of us. All of a sudden, we have this huge responsibility by ourselves to not screw it up. And for some of us, our parents let go of it all, hoping we'd handle it well.

I'm 17. I'm young. Why the fuck do i have to carry a responsibility that affects how my future would turn out!

It's really a change, ya know?

From not having to worry bout anything but SPM, back when as far as we see of our future was the end of SPM.
And now, we're making the decision of our lives.
It's scary.

And truth to be told, i'm not ready to grow up.

kisses.

My past.

I've forgotten how much you used to make me laugh.
I miss you la dumbshit.

;)

kisses.

...

Honestly, i feel useless.
It's been months since SPM ended and it's been pretty dull. It's fun and all going out and partying. But i need to do something productive, something to fill my mind all the time. Now, it's just empty. The excitement has died down. It's about time.

Part of me kinda regrets not applying for the January intake at Taylors. My trial results weren't up to par. 7A'1 not good enough for a higher percentage of scholarship. So March intake it was..

I'm doing nothing now. Everyday, either i'm home online and texting or most times, i'm out and about. In KL, shopping, drinking, smoking whatever or just mamak or William's house.

To me, it kinda seems pointless now. Sure it's fun, but it's like there's no purpose in life anymore (sounds depressing i know). I kinda lost my drive. My passion for things..

..I need to find that bounce in my step back.

kisses.

The future

Some of us, class of 08 has already started college.

Well, i'm only starting in March. Cause my trial results weren't up to par.
Till then, i'm focusing on modeling.
I need to put more into it honestly, i'm not working that hard.
I'm partying more than i am working...

kisses.

Tagged by Oreo Cookie

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
Yea. Alot.

2. How about drinking?
Well, i drink. As long as he drinks within his limit it's okay.

3. Do you liked someone you can't have?
I did once.

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
It'd be fun to know someone new.

5. What's your favourite sport?
Ballet. Running. Pool?

6. It's saturday night, you're home alone... what do you do?
Make some calls and head out.

7. Do you like roller coasters?
LOVE the adrenaline.

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
When the right person comes along.

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
I wouldn't trade him for any celebrity at all.

10. What are you doing this weekend?
Pool + Club + Date.

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
Italiannies and Pastamania. Owh, C. Club too.

12. Have you ever hugged someone?
Yes .

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
Yea.

14. Do you like anyone right now?
I'm in love ;)

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Gay or straight?

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
Both.

17. What kind of phone do you have?
Limited Edition Nokia Slide Phone.

18. Computer or Laptop?
Laptop . My red DELL Inspiron 1420

19. Jeans or sweats?
Levi's and Juicy's.

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
Can't determined. There's always the good and bad.

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
one eight baby!

22. What should you be doing right now?
Nothing. Checking if he's studying?

23. What is your favorite TV show?
Gossip Girl.

24. What's been your last purchase?
Vodka.

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
It's a turn off to me. Sorry.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Not that i remember.

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Online. Read or make some calls to get out.

28. What is your favourite subject?
I'm into anything interesting.

29. What's the best thing that happened on you?
Meeting some really awesome people (you know who you are ;) ). Leaving school. The love of my life. Anorexia. Having a good family. And all the parties and the fun times.

30. 1o person to tag : Anyone.

Have fun ;)

kisses.

The things we do..

Asia Cafe with Titus and Nick Kee. Nick Kee looks like Jeff from behind.



Shisha at KL ;)
Whatever happened there stays there right?

kisses.

C. Club (again)

Gawd, drinking and chain smoking so often not good.
Lol.

kisses.

Please..

..make the tears stop.

kisses.

With our lives ahead of us..

I never want to be the one to stop you from getting the better things in life. Cause baby, you deserve it.

If Europe is where you're meant to be, then Europe it is. If that's the best for your future, then that's what i want you to go after.

And about us? I don't know..
But whatever happens, I'm always two steps behind. All you have to do is turn around, and I'll be there.

kisses.

I will miss you

As little time i've known you, it's not hard to feel that bushy curly head pussy of yours missing everytime i happen to be there.

Good luck there, Daniel.

Sorry dude, it's the only picture i have of you.

;)

kisses,

Tagged by Tracy Twilight

Instructions:
#Remove one question from below and add in your own personal question.
#Make a total of 20 questions and tag 5 people.
# Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.
#List them out at the end of the post.


1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now..
2. Don't change your clothes, just take a picture..
3. Post that picture with NO editing.
4. Post the picture with these instructions.

At Starbucks Borders in The Gardens now ;)

1.What’s your ambition? - Model/ TV host for now.

2.What do u like the most about your siblings?- The fact that they're nothing like me.

3.Are u looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?-Nope. I'm perfectly happy with the love of my life.


4.Do you think you have enough confidence? - Definitely ;)


5.How many babies you want?- 3.

6.What would you name your kids in the future? - Wyatt (boy), Sean (boy), Adriana (girl).


7.What is your goal for this year(2009)? - Chase my dreams.

8. Do you think you're clever?- Yes.

9.What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?(list 10)
- Faithful
- Honest
- Spontaneous
- Romantic
- Clicks superbly well
- Tolerates my sarcasm and bitchy-ness
- Charming
- Understanding
- Fun
- Decent fashion sense

10.Do u ever wonder where you would end up after you die?- Yea.

11.What are your bad habits?- Every fucking sentence i say has a fuck. Binge and starve.

12. Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself? - Taller, thinner.

13. State a random fact about yourself?- I'm recovering from anorexia and bulimia. And depression. And self harm.

14.What does flying means to you? - Being free.


15. What do you crave for the most currently? - My boyfriend.

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words. - Tracy. Sweet. Fun. One of a kind.


17.What Have you not tried yet ? - Ciggs and drugs. And all the extreme sports i wanna do.

18.What is in your mind now?- My photoshoot. And my boyfriend.

19. Do you believe in fate? - Very.

20.Who do you want to be 10 years later. - The person i have always pictured myself to be.

Dear Simone

Not apologizing for not knowing your full name. I don't think a slut like you deserve a full name.
So, anyways, don't be flattered your name's right up there, cause you're worth nothing to me, nada, zero, zip. This will only cost me 5 seconds, so why not?

Give the readers someone to stay away from.

Honestly, i think you know what you did against me. And it's trashy sluts like you who should just get poured acid on, stabbed with a dagger, then put salt, sliced into pieces, rot and burn in hell (trust me, i'm being nice enough already).

I think your boyfriend deserves better. Alvin or something, right? Heck, any girl he can pick up on the street or in a club is way better than you (he probably thinks so too). I don't think that trashy sluts (ie. you) deserve a boyfriend or anyone to love. I don't think your badly dressed self deserves to live. ( seriously, i think it's like some rule thing that cheap sluts dresses extremely badly)

In short, Simone, know that i hate you and thinking about breathing in the same slutty air as you do just disgusts me, you cheap slutty white piece of badly dressed trash.

Now, why don't you go do something useful and make yourself a better person like slit your wrists or stick your finger down your throat. Anything, anything at all will do you good, trust me.

;)

You know you love me,
S.

despise

i despise the way you look at him, in many ways,

thinking bout how you can be such a slut,

maybe you just do not treasure monogamous relationships,

That's why you try to play with mine,

Its rather brave of you to even still sit infront of me like i dare not kill you,

Don't try to act cute like as if he will fall for you,

Cause he only used you as his toy,

You're such a slut for the things you did,

You're such a whore for even trying,

God knows in which 4 corners of the world you exist from,

cause you obviously have no face for yourself to even still show up in my presence,

Dont even dare to touch him or even drown him with your skanky stench of yours,

if you do i swear on my own dead body i will tear you apart,

And if you were a guy there will be rabbies rabbits feasting on your balls right now,

May you ever live in regret you dumb piece of trash,

For you are nothing but a cheap ugly looking slut that people fuck


LOVES, B

Feel Good Snacking

Thank you hunnybun.

:)

I love you.

kisses.

The Hoodie Clan

After ballet last Saturday and all the comments bout my new hair colour, we (Lionel, Oreo Cookie, William and I) headed out to watch Bedtime Stories :D

We bumped into Auntie Merle, which was funny. Then in the cinema, some kid behind Aurea fell on his/her head.

Hahahahahahahahaha.
*falls off couch*

That's what they get for kicking our seats and wiping McD grease on em'.

The ride home was fun mostly cause i was high (naturally). And i don't even remember what i said. I just know i disturbed Lionel alot.







The Hoodie Clan.


Spent the night camwhoring at William's place and eating bacon :)
Went home bout 2 a.m..




And now, his mum gave me the official slippers of the house.

kisses.