Being young sometimes has it's perks.
But sometimes it makes me feel inferior to others.
Wednesday night was the finale of the Broadwalk Modeling online pageant and being the youngest there, just like i am in the FHM Girl Next Door, does sometimes make me feel like i'm not up to par. I mean, being older, in your near twenties, definitely you're labeled hotter naturally. They have more muscle tone and a better figure overall when i'm only at a stage where i'm losing my baby fats ~__~
I always thought that age isn't a barrier in any way, not in love or talent. But at some point, it's a factor especially when it comes to anything regarding looks. You can definitely tell the difference between a 25 year old and someone as young as me.
But i keep telling myself that i'm just as much of a competition as anyone else. I try to be as confident as i can.
But that night, i didn't do as great. I already knew i wouldn't win. With the pageant being completely voting based, it has it's flaws. It was not properly judged based on their model potential. Anyone can join basically, as long as you have friends. It was more of a popularity contest that focus alot on campaigning. Not so much of a model search. But i'm sure they have their reasons why it was made so.
During the final voting stage, i was busy modeling for FHM for 2 weeks. Campaigning was not my priority, so i knew my chances of winning was slim. But hey, at least i tried, right?
:)
I'm glad and very appreciative that my friends came over (even though you guys were late!) LOL. I admit, i need people around me, sometimes i can't do it alone. I was on the verge of breaking down, knowing that my friends weren't there yet. I'm not usually like this. I don't get nervous, no one has ever seen me nervous in a very very long time. Confidence is what i've been known to have and own.
I guess that night just proved to me that sometimes, i'm only human.
It was definitely a chaotic night to remember. It was my first model search/pageant and it was a great experience. Terry from Broadwalk Modeling was a great help in preparing us for the industry and gave us a glimpse of what is required of us. I'm definitely looking forward to working with them in future. It was nice meeting the girls and it was great knowing that i have people who support me and back me up, in person, in twitter, text messages, phone calls and facebook.
Ahhh, the world of online social networking.
That night, i brought the boyf, Azhar, Suzuki, and Kent along. The rest of the group was supposed to be there but they couldn't make it last minute but it was alright :) i'm just glad for the support the past few months. Aurea and Eshia texted me saying how proud they were (it's just a small thing ~__~ ). Nick Kee was there. And suprisingly the FHM team was there too to give support. Miss Julia, Tim.
It was a great night knowing that you have people to back you up no matter what.
Even for things as small as this.
Well like i said, i didn't win.
But i did bag for Miss Personality ;)
I heart you, every single goddamn one of you.
But sometimes it makes me feel inferior to others.
Wednesday night was the finale of the Broadwalk Modeling online pageant and being the youngest there, just like i am in the FHM Girl Next Door, does sometimes make me feel like i'm not up to par. I mean, being older, in your near twenties, definitely you're labeled hotter naturally. They have more muscle tone and a better figure overall when i'm only at a stage where i'm losing my baby fats ~__~
I always thought that age isn't a barrier in any way, not in love or talent. But at some point, it's a factor especially when it comes to anything regarding looks. You can definitely tell the difference between a 25 year old and someone as young as me.
But i keep telling myself that i'm just as much of a competition as anyone else. I try to be as confident as i can.
But that night, i didn't do as great. I already knew i wouldn't win. With the pageant being completely voting based, it has it's flaws. It was not properly judged based on their model potential. Anyone can join basically, as long as you have friends. It was more of a popularity contest that focus alot on campaigning. Not so much of a model search. But i'm sure they have their reasons why it was made so.
During the final voting stage, i was busy modeling for FHM for 2 weeks. Campaigning was not my priority, so i knew my chances of winning was slim. But hey, at least i tried, right?
:)
I'm glad and very appreciative that my friends came over (even though you guys were late!) LOL. I admit, i need people around me, sometimes i can't do it alone. I was on the verge of breaking down, knowing that my friends weren't there yet. I'm not usually like this. I don't get nervous, no one has ever seen me nervous in a very very long time. Confidence is what i've been known to have and own.
I guess that night just proved to me that sometimes, i'm only human.
It was definitely a chaotic night to remember. It was my first model search/pageant and it was a great experience. Terry from Broadwalk Modeling was a great help in preparing us for the industry and gave us a glimpse of what is required of us. I'm definitely looking forward to working with them in future. It was nice meeting the girls and it was great knowing that i have people who support me and back me up, in person, in twitter, text messages, phone calls and facebook. Ahhh, the world of online social networking.
That night, i brought the boyf, Azhar, Suzuki, and Kent along. The rest of the group was supposed to be there but they couldn't make it last minute but it was alright :) i'm just glad for the support the past few months. Aurea and Eshia texted me saying how proud they were (it's just a small thing ~__~ ). Nick Kee was there. And suprisingly the FHM team was there too to give support. Miss Julia, Tim. It was a great night knowing that you have people to back you up no matter what.
Even for things as small as this.
Well like i said, i didn't win.But i did bag for Miss Personality ;)
I heart you, every single goddamn one of you.kisses.
3 kisses:
Congrats
thou din catch up with u during the finale
i miss u . not lesbo-ing :(
Congrats!
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