Maybe i should stop being so pessimistic and stop scrutinizing every single minute detail of my life. I do this thing where i analyze practically everything, and i find every possible loophole and meaning and foulplay.
I would make an awesome lawyer. :D
Tropicana City Mall.
I'm blessed (or cursed) with constant drama. Depending on how you see it. I'm either happy one moment, messed up the next or in a state of confusion when things happen all at one go. I don't think i've stayed in one state for more than 2 days in ages.
It's tiring. The turbulence of emotions pushes you across the line to insanity sometimes. It's crazy.
With everything that has ever happened to me, not once have i not put it under an electronic microscope and take it apart and go through every bit of it with the greatest of attention.
And when i find a loophole in it, it's magnified. I guess that explains how i doubt nearly everything and get paranoid over things that don't even exist.
Euveng & myself
Josh & myself.
Picture distortion caused by Euveng's flash.
Maybe because i've been let down and betrayed so many times that i go to the extreme to make sure i brace myself for any form of future possibility of the same fate. So i try to figure things how before they come to be.
And most times, i figure things out right. Including people.
Euveng & Selena
Because of it, i tend to channel my energy negatively. That's my problem.
I could try to learn to look at the brighter side of life. I mean, life goes on despite the drama. Despite the loss of anyone or anything, even love. The world doesn't stop and mourn.
Rather than growing up and start taking life seriously, maybe for me it's the other way round. It's time to start taking life lightly. I don't wanna die one day and all i can think about is all the doubts i ever have of everyone and everything. Of how every single one of them has the possibility of screwing me up. That 'what the hell, i might as well die'.
Maybe letting your guard down is not so bad. Maybe then, happy things can get in.
Cause i wanna be able to truly smile one day.
He was my date.
I've never entirely let my heart go. I have a childhood that reminds me that i shouldn't.
Thing is, what does my childhood have anything to do with the people around me now?
My heart has been very well taken care of of late and it's only logical that i give my heart whole to him. But at every flaw at every word he says, i hold myself back, it's stupid. I need to remind myself that he's not perfect, no one is. Nor i or any of my friends.
I forget that nothing in this world is.
It's time to stop taking every bloody thing in the world so seriously.
I would make an awesome lawyer. :D
Tropicana City Mall.I'm blessed (or cursed) with constant drama. Depending on how you see it. I'm either happy one moment, messed up the next or in a state of confusion when things happen all at one go. I don't think i've stayed in one state for more than 2 days in ages.
It's tiring. The turbulence of emotions pushes you across the line to insanity sometimes. It's crazy.
With everything that has ever happened to me, not once have i not put it under an electronic microscope and take it apart and go through every bit of it with the greatest of attention.And when i find a loophole in it, it's magnified. I guess that explains how i doubt nearly everything and get paranoid over things that don't even exist.
Euveng & myself
Josh & myself.Picture distortion caused by Euveng's flash.
Maybe because i've been let down and betrayed so many times that i go to the extreme to make sure i brace myself for any form of future possibility of the same fate. So i try to figure things how before they come to be.
And most times, i figure things out right. Including people.
Euveng & Selena 
Because of it, i tend to channel my energy negatively. That's my problem.I could try to learn to look at the brighter side of life. I mean, life goes on despite the drama. Despite the loss of anyone or anything, even love. The world doesn't stop and mourn.
Rather than growing up and start taking life seriously, maybe for me it's the other way round. It's time to start taking life lightly. I don't wanna die one day and all i can think about is all the doubts i ever have of everyone and everything. Of how every single one of them has the possibility of screwing me up. That 'what the hell, i might as well die'.Maybe letting your guard down is not so bad. Maybe then, happy things can get in.
Cause i wanna be able to truly smile one day.
He was my date.I've never entirely let my heart go. I have a childhood that reminds me that i shouldn't.
Thing is, what does my childhood have anything to do with the people around me now?
My heart has been very well taken care of of late and it's only logical that i give my heart whole to him. But at every flaw at every word he says, i hold myself back, it's stupid. I need to remind myself that he's not perfect, no one is. Nor i or any of my friends.
I forget that nothing in this world is.
It's time to stop taking every bloody thing in the world so seriously.
kisses.
2 kisses:
Wow! a fun time out with great friends:)
thanks it was great :)
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