Happily Never After

"You know what's worse than growing apart? Not knowing what came between us."
MichelleLSL, January 20th.

Maybe it's my fault, that i back away sometimes. Still afraid of getting hurt. I need your reassurance and probably right now is not the best time to ask for it. But i need it. I admit that. I'm not as strong as you think i am.

I back away for my own security.

In some ways, i have changed. I'm much more emotionally independant, as a result of backing away, i became more sure of myself and the decisions i make. In some ways, i've stopped depending on you.

From that, i care less, i feel less.

It's not a good thing when i'm in a serious relationship. It's not a good thing at all.
Slowly, i'm building a wall around me, and i sense that you're doing the same too.
The wall you once broke down, it's building up again.

I don't know what's going on, and that's the scary part. I can't fix it...

Baby, what's happening to us?

This heart we share, it's breaking apart. And you're not even here to say things will get better.

kisses.