Just a post..

.. to wish Eshia all her best in the audition today.
She just left my place, on the way to Times Square.
We made her practice with the microphone yesterday and everyone had goosebumps when she sang (yes, she's that good).

Orange Coloured Sky is her song.

She's actually so much better in person than in videos cause her videophone sucks):


Owh did i mention, i barely slept and i will be leaving to Malaysia's International Fashion Week in bout an hour. Can't wait Amelia & Wei Ying!

Us, who were dancing at the DJ booth got free invites to the club's event.

Let's Celebrate

Partied the night away at Bamboo in TTDI Plaza with my girls and guys.
Definitely a night to remember, except the guys that were dirty dancing with me and random guys slipping numbers into my hand.

We had bottles of Dewars whisky.



Dancing on top of speakers at the DJ booth.

Drunk asses.

Us.

Nic; Me; Eshia.

LoL.

A very cuckoo Que.

We were the most sober ones.

She's drunk i think.

Leaving the top of the bar.

On top of the bar, for the birthday girl.

Birthday Girl.

Drunk.
Nice.
See my hair colour!
See how drunk they are.

Freak haha.

This picture is nice :D



Ehsia; me.

Birthday Girl! (in my shorts)



Happy 17th birthday my babe, Nicole Aldeth Main!
Finally.
Love Ya.

Break

Went to Midvalley.
And it was so fun.

On the way, every damn car that honks and every damn guy that disturbs or slows down to stare as they pass by us, Amelia was like "ASSHOLE!"

so stupid. And when we got to the hotel for the Fashion Week, Amelia was like some guy was eye-ing me. People were pretty hot there :D

We Starbucks-ed. Shopped. Bitched. And a whole load of very sick things. Checked out the prices for my colour.

Got back, Amelia wanted a haircut so i kept pushing her to do it today.
Results: GoRGeous.

Bumped into MichelleLeong and Brandon.

I got 7 free tickets to GSC ;)
Going for a movie tomorrow.
Friday, colouring with Eshia and Nic.
Night + Tracy and William.
Saturday, Fashion Week.

Pictures another, i promise.

kisses.

The Past

Things that were once me.

And still are me.

kisses.

Quotes

I need you to hold me back when I'm starting to let go
--Ling.

It's not about the sex. It's not. It's about the moment afterward. Where the world seems to disappear and you just feel safe.
--Grey's Anatomy.

You're the person i wanted to spend the rest of my life with. You're the one i wanted to have kids with and go through life. And i still want you to be that person.
--Ling

Dream.

kisses.

Random Ramblings

Physics is over and i did a few mistakes. Completely disappoint myself. Geez.

Now that the panics of sitting for SPM sorta died down. The worry of whether i did right or wrong in exam is building up.

Gawd..

When DaphLee hugged me today i noticed she had a bright pink stud. So blingbling.

I wanna shop. Who's free? :)

If you wanna spread rumors bout me, fine, seems like your whole life is just dedicated to that huh?

I send love, hugs and kisses to all.

kisses.

Just One Day

Just one day, one night, is that too much to ask for?

I cried during exam and i have had enough on my mind already.
I don't need this.

Just for one night.




Please.

kisses.

Letting go

..I'm still learning how to.

...

Stupid fuck you blogspot!
Fucker dreamt that i was pregnant. How the hell is that gonna happen at all.
In-vitro Fertilisation Kim Loong says.
Oh yeah, someone sneaked up on me, got me down and stole my eggs. That's how it's gonna happen.

Hi Eshia.
Hi Nicole.
Hi Que.
Yes i finally updated.

Exams

.. still on.
8 and a half subject down. 2 and a half more to go.
Physics paper 1,2,3
English for Science and Technology 1,2
Art paper 2

Blogspot hates me.
Can't seem to upload pictures.

kisses.

BooHoo

6 subjects down, 5 more to go.

OMFG. Stalker just called.

The Song

nice song.

kisses.

Happily Never After -The Pussycat Dolls

This is to you. My BigAss and my Bimbo.

"I dont think I want this anymore"
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself "You've left before
This time you will stay gone , thats for sure"

And he shattered something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far
Normally this would be
The time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
As she got into her car
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall
As she drove away she starts to smile
Realized she hadn't for a while
No destination, she drove for miles
Wonderin' why she stayed in such denial

Laughing about the way he shattered something as
She dragged her suitcase down the path
To the driveway
She had never gone that far
Normally this would be
The time that she
Would let him talk her out of leaving
But this time, without crying
As she got into her car
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall

I'm done , I'm done
Said I'm so done
So done, I'm done, I'm done
I'm free, I'm free, I'm free
Free to be me

She inhales an air she'd never breathed before
The air of no drama, no more
She said

No..
Happily never after
That just aint for me Because finally
I know, I deserve better, after all
I'll never let another teardrop fall
(3x)

..another teardrop fall

kisses.

Frustrated.

I can't bloody study. I feel like sleepy all the time. Exhausted.

kisses.

Quotes

I haven't done quotes in a while.

it seems as though everyone is telling you to give up, but those words cant seem to leave my mouth, because i know thats the last thing you need to hear. if you really love him, dont give up. i know that when i was going through the same thing you were going through, i had so many people telling me to just give up, & you know what ? after a while i started to do just that. and maybe, just maybe, if i hadnt, id have him right now. but all i know is if you really love him, dont give up.

so appreciate the good times but dont take the worst for granted. you only get so many second chances.

gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

( albert einstein )

you can feel when someone you hold close to your heart is slipping away, little by little. its when the mere thought of losing a friend can bring you tears almost instantly. the pain you are beginning to feel can crush your entire heart. yet everything that you try to do to solve the problems only push them further & further away from you. when the only chance of getting back to the ways things were in the beginning is to hope this person realizes what they may be losing.

the worst battle is between what you know & how you feel.

so heres a piece of advice :
let go when youre hurting too much,
give up when loves not enough, & move on.
when things are not like before .. for surely there
is someone out there who will love you even more.

theres no limit to how long you can care for someone & no limit on how much. especially when theyve been so much a part of your life for so long.

I wonder how after high school is gonna be like. I worry too much when i shouldn't. Go with the flow Ling, just go with the flow.

kisses.

20 things to do before i turn 20.

1.Learn to drive ie. get a license.
2.Learn to play a computer game (besides Sims) properly.
3.Get my hair coloured.
4.Allow Eshia to take me pierce.
5.Join that competition.
6.Visit at least 10 foreign countries (Done with Indonesia, Thailand, Hong Kong, Korea, China, Singapore)
7.Stay up party for 3 days straight.
8.Sleep for 3 days after that.
9.Finally eat and not care how many calories i just consumed at all.
10.Excel academically in college and SPM.
11.Park my ass in front of the laptop all day.
12.Dance like no one's watching on the streets.
13.Go on a trip with my boyfriend.
14.Get Ian to call Eshia Bimbo Che Che again.
15.Get Nicole's head fixed and her hair coloured with me.
16.Have a great time at college.
17.Videotape Vaentan getting his tattoo.
18.Swim nude in the ocean.
19.Spend a night under the stars.
20.Grow taller and boobs.

kisses.

P.S.: Might edit later.

Day Three

Bahasa Malaysia 1,2
English 1,2
History 1,2
Mathematics 1,2
Additional Mathematics 1,2
Art 1,2,3
Moral
Chemistry 1,2,3
Biology 1,2,3
Physics 1,2,3
English for Science and Technology 1,2

4 done, 7 more to go.
Lack of sleep and stress getting to me. I'm high naturally. Just ask around.
So far, it's been pretty good but i don't wanna say much. In case i might jinx it.
I'm high. I'm going all i have SUPER POWERS!! And going all SEEEEXXXXXXXXX!!

Feel sick =(

kisses.

Day One

Note that i will not be updating on every exam if that's what you're expecting.

So today we sat for Bahasa Melayu 1, Sejarah 1 and Bahasa Melayu 2. So gonna burn my BM books after this!

Thanks Mrs. Lim for the past 5 years :)

Anyway, i thank everyone for all the messages the past week. It's times like these that you feel so loved.

Last night, Que called before i went to bed just to wish me luck and to calm me down. Thanks hun.
This morning i woke up to messages and Nicole sent this, i think she's cuckoo.

"Baby! Don't be freaking out k. Eat sumthing b4 u leave the house and relax. Chillex k? I love you babe. Do your best! Have faith in u. Muax!"

Yupp, gone case. Lol. No worries, i still love you.
William called this morning before i left for school at 6.30 a.m.. To give me love and to calm me down and asked me to step on the squirrel.
Just to let ya'll know i'm alive.

Yes Aurea, i'm alive.

And trust me, after all day of exams, just coming home to booming bass in my room while lying down, feeling the adrenaline rush.
Whao.

kisses.

Time of Our Lives

Dear all SPM candidates, my friends,

What's coming up in 3 days is gonna be the first significant step on the path we're carving of our future. It's crazy, isn't it? It's been 5 years in high school and soon enough it'll be ending. The years spent there, making mistakes and learning from each other, we grew up, we changed and now we're choosing our own path. Despite everything, know that these 5 years in high school will be the time of our lives neither of us will ever forget. It is in this 5 years, we grew up alot.

And after what's coming to us in 3 days, things will never be the same again. We're on to a whole new world so different from the one we are in now, trying to make our own mark.

I'm not sure how everything will turn out, as badly as i want to know it now. I still can't tell.

We are all destined for great things, i believe we all do. This is one final time we can prove ourselves in this school.


So here's to our final year, the end of high school and the time of our lives.
cheers.

WeiYing and KimLoong have the world at their feet.
Amelia is destined to go beyond her dreams.
Teva, there is a world waiting for you to discover.
And Tyng, you know yourself perfectly clear.
Trisha, no one can stop you from the dreams you chase.
Same to Daphne, despite all and everything you'll face.
To Vaentan, i know you'll do great things i'm sure.
My dearest Nicole, you'll be out of this world.

kisses.

Few Words

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't wanna talk at all the year after that.

So, i just wanted to say, even if i never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.

Here's to them, the 6 special people in my life:
KimLoong, Teva, Amelia, Nicole, Vaenten, Tyng.

At one point in your life, you come to learn who your real friends are, a realization. This happened to me a few months ago. It hasn't happened to some of my friends but rest assured that it will happen, maybe in a few weeks time or in a few years.

It may take someone to give you a slap in the face or when you've wronged so much that the only thing left to do is the right thing.

I had my boyfriend to yell at me in the face.
Lol.
Going off to study now.

credit: www.adelinetyng-tyng.blogpsot.com

kisses.

You guys

You switch from one person to the next and you're the one telling us to get a life.
Pretty ironic, eyh?
Not my problem you're obsessed with me.

;)

kisses.

That Boy

He has no idea the things i've done for him.

The things he needs but he couldn't see it himself, things he couldn't ask for. The things i do without him knowing, for him. He still doesn't know.

That boy, I'd do anything for him.

kisses.

Eshia's blog

Whoever who has Eshia's blog link, read it!
She wrote about me!
Haha.
B, you know you love me ;)

P.S.: Her cat is super hawt.

...

SPM is 4 days away and earlier i think it finally hit me and i wanted to cry cause i know as much i keep saying i'm studying, i'm really not (i'm blogging so much). My 7/8 A1's is just not pretty enough with the 3B's there. School was fun and we Camwhored like mad. Mamak after for a while, to have my biasa and just talk about things bothering us.

Nic, are you prepared babe?

I know i'm not.

Study conference tonight.
Subject:History
Time: 9 p.m.
Be there with a webcam, and microphone.

Crunch time!
Good luck guys.

kisses.

Summer

So yesterday i planned to stay home and study all day. Just me, my books and my Diet Coke.

And out of nowhere i got a call from a very random number, i just picked up out of impulse.

It was Summer! And she was being so random, i guess she just ended college. I barely recognized her but she was my senior years back. She was yelling into the phone Suet Liiiiinnnngggggg.

She and Mengq Yek was right at my doorstep! Wtf! She was telling me to come out and i was like "Are you fucking serious?! Wei, i look like crap! You never call me earlier!" I got dressed and got out, and we were like:

o.O

So we were talking right there for a real long time then we decided to head out to mamak. Talking bout deep shit.

He looks so ridiculous. The watch with the sentimental value to him.

My biasa. Yes, i have a biasa.

This is Summer.

Well then i found out that Summer knows William. So finally, William met Mengq Yek. The boyfriend meets the ex-boyfriend. When we dropped by his house.

Yes, Mengq Yek is my ex-boyfriend. The part-time actor/ graphic student at TOA.

This is a more decent picture of him. Not that i actually have any decent pictures of him with me.

kisses.

Thoughts

I have not gone out till late in one month. Exactly why i have the time to blog.
Late meaning 4a.m.
I remember the last time was either it HouMing's birthday, i passed out from all the booze and dancing or it was just a night of lepaking.
I miss those nights out.
1 a.m. is actually averagely early to me now.

After SPM plans distracting me right now. All the shopping, movies, bars, drinking, clubs, parties and vacations.

kisses.

Little Wonders - Rob Thomas

Pictures

Amelia!

Don't blue black-kan my face! And don't white-kan my eyes! I have BROWN eyes, not WHITE!

Lol.

...

I've been studying a little more. Stuck on History mostly.
Barack Obama won! Woot!
I don't even know why i like him when i don't know much bout politics. I read here and there. I just don't like Sarah Palin.


Barack Obama.
Quite sexy.

...
Sometimes when you think that you've already accepted someone for who they are and for once things are calm, something comes up to haunt you. I have no idea what to do right now, I'm confusing myself. He's confusing me. I'm lost.

kisses.

HOW TO GIVE A MIND-BLOWING BLOWJOB

Caught your attention didn't it?

I have a couple of news:
*Obama winning! Obama rules!
*Eshia stripped.
*She wants to fuck me. Yes, she does.
*There is a manual on giving blowjobs in CLEO.
*Nicole is awesome.
*But i'm still great.
*I want Louboutins and Monolos.
*I'm still not studying.

William makes awesome food.

Seriously. That guy can cook.

Groceries for his mum and for dinner

McD for lunch.

Nothing to do at his place.

Playing with minced meat, disgusting.

See, disgusting.

He did most.

I just stood there and look pretty. He says i mess things up. =(

Meatball Something something.

Looks good doesn't it?

Fell asleep on my bed.

kisses.

Sexy Time with McD

McD delivers to school. Who knew?

I didn't eat though. KimLoong took mine instead.

After that, Tyng and i went look for teachers and later we decided to skip school. Too bad GilaGayMan wasn't there. I practically had everyone staring at us with my bag.

En.Siva saw us skipping.

Lol. But we still went anyway.

Went to mamak with friends. Was showing KimLoong has to perform a blowjob using a straw. So KimLoong, now you know, need to know more? Watch your porno.

We had the car today so the oh-so-convinience of having transport.

kisses.